something new to say

well...elaine and jordan ar...u 2 hv been talking bout how long u guys never blog, how sad u r to graduate , miss frens, getting job, future, how u guys gonna on, and all da same thing...so i dun think i wanna repeat that phrases....well..i m here to confess sumthing...perhaps 4 a feelingless guy can finally found his own feelings...and confess it....well...u c...unbelievably...i had get back to life and die again dis semester....someone gives me life....and the most difficult feeling to hv is sumone i know so well has taken all the life and feelings away from me...i dun blame him/her...coz is jz my own doings...i tot is over after i die again...perhaps be wat i used to be like owiz...but it gets worse...

worse???yeah...damn rite...is worse...well...me...i became the transporter 4 both of them...is like pos laju...where u need to deliver by a movement...a moving guy....hu is owiz on the move....yea...right...is so hard at first to be that transporter...but as days go by...i ask myself...ince u oredi h a chance to live like a man ...although u die again in the end...y not jz thank god 4 dat 2 weeks period???4 letting u be urself again...i think back wat i said...well...i m right!!!yes...i understand now...i shud be grateful 4 tht period....is ok 4 me go back to nothing again...bcoz i am born from nothing...i jz feel and thought that god shud let me be that 'new me' 4 longer...and i tot i shud be angry on he took my life away since it is given by sumone i love....but...i understand in the end...is ok and is too good to be true dat i actually have that chance to be alive...

yes...now my mind is like an open sky...my soul flies like a free bird...i will continue to be that transporter as it is destined 4 me to follow...u might think that i shud fight to be alive again...but sumthing is meant to be...u might say dat i m dat kind of person hu gives up easily...but hell no!!!i m not..i jz realize wat shud be grateful, shud be thankful...and is a sin to be angry 4 wat u got...now...my main priority is 4 both of them to realize that being alive is good...and stay alive with each other....

4 my dear readers...u might not know and understand wat i said...u might think dat i a bullshitting...but im not...dun try to ask me wat i wrote...coz im not gonna explain...

THE END

-SPREAD LOVE EVERYWHERE YOU GO-

-APPREACIATE LOVE WHILE IT IS STILL THERE-

and most importantly...

-BE ALIVE-