Rain of cats and dogs, beer, cigars and lots of chocalate!!!

the title jz suggest what i got from the langkawi trip last fri, sat and sunday...for the first 2 days it is ntg but rain rain rain...flood everywhere...cant reli go anywhere/....but it dun stop us...we went to the 7 wells, crocodile park, underwater world, eat lots of underwater food...and lots of exiting places...that is day activity...nite activity...well...drink beer...eat chocolate...and gamble!!!...hahha...won RM 17 from all my cousins...well...the trip is awesome if there is no rain...it isnt too bad...afterall...to me...it is a briliant chance 4 me to get out of this sad and despair place 4 a while....well..getting better...ntg can ever bring me down dun it???....well..now my cousins r spending their time with me here in kl until christmas ...yea....we play bowling....it is so cheap la....went to kl together....so happyla....all laughters r in the air....so damn happy....reli no time to blog nowadays....hahha....well now got to go liao....goin out liao....cya!!!

real holiday!!!

yea...my cousin will be arriving tonight...so happy....gonna play on9 games...strategies games...until late night....tomolo going to watch king kong together...friday will be the day we actually go 4 holiday...we r going to langkawi...yea...on the way we r gonna pick up my aunt's family in ipoh...there we r gonna play like mad...then my cousins had decided to stay here until chrismas...guess i cant help my dad in that period coz gonna bring him to search and inquire universities...then oni find sum job in taipan, pyramid, carrefore, giant...or any where else 4 january and february la...haha...until then cya...

something new to say

well...elaine and jordan ar...u 2 hv been talking bout how long u guys never blog, how sad u r to graduate , miss frens, getting job, future, how u guys gonna on, and all da same thing...so i dun think i wanna repeat that phrases....well..i m here to confess sumthing...perhaps 4 a feelingless guy can finally found his own feelings...and confess it....well...u c...unbelievably...i had get back to life and die again dis semester....someone gives me life....and the most difficult feeling to hv is sumone i know so well has taken all the life and feelings away from me...i dun blame him/her...coz is jz my own doings...i tot is over after i die again...perhaps be wat i used to be like owiz...but it gets worse...

worse???yeah...damn rite...is worse...well...me...i became the transporter 4 both of them...is like pos laju...where u need to deliver by a movement...a moving guy....hu is owiz on the move....yea...right...is so hard at first to be that transporter...but as days go by...i ask myself...ince u oredi h a chance to live like a man ...although u die again in the end...y not jz thank god 4 dat 2 weeks period???4 letting u be urself again...i think back wat i said...well...i m right!!!yes...i understand now...i shud be grateful 4 tht period....is ok 4 me go back to nothing again...bcoz i am born from nothing...i jz feel and thought that god shud let me be that 'new me' 4 longer...and i tot i shud be angry on he took my life away since it is given by sumone i love....but...i understand in the end...is ok and is too good to be true dat i actually have that chance to be alive...

yes...now my mind is like an open sky...my soul flies like a free bird...i will continue to be that transporter as it is destined 4 me to follow...u might think that i shud fight to be alive again...but sumthing is meant to be...u might say dat i m dat kind of person hu gives up easily...but hell no!!!i m not..i jz realize wat shud be grateful, shud be thankful...and is a sin to be angry 4 wat u got...now...my main priority is 4 both of them to realize that being alive is good...and stay alive with each other....

4 my dear readers...u might not know and understand wat i said...u might think dat i a bullshitting...but im not...dun try to ask me wat i wrote...coz im not gonna explain...

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-SPREAD LOVE EVERYWHERE YOU GO-

-APPREACIATE LOVE WHILE IT IS STILL THERE-

and most importantly...

-BE ALIVE-